If I Had You in December

If I had you in January,
I wouldn’t have to worry about New Year’s Resolutions,
Because I can be better without them,
If I had you in January.

If I had you in February,
The days would fly by even faster,
I wouldn’t even have time to pull out a calendar,
If I had you in February.

If I had you in March,
I would rush into bloom,
Given reason to by the sunlight in your eyes,
If I had you in March.

If I had you in April,
I would forget how to regret,
My mistakes would seem so small,
If I had you in April.

If I had you in May,
I would hate myself less,
For any explosion of guilt would evaporate,
If I had you in May.

If I had you in June,
I would rise faster than the sun,
If that would mean more time with you,
If I had you in June.

If I had you in July,
The long hours would press into paradise,
As I would know nothing but you,
If I had you in July.

If I had you in August,
My novel anxieties would transform into excitement,
As you turned every challenge to truth,
If I had you in August.

If I had you in September,
I wouldn’t reek of birthday wishes,
Because I would already have everything I needed,
If I had you in September.

If I had you in October,
My masks would be more silly than serious,
As I would be so used to being myself,
If I had you in October.

If I had you in November,
I would layer myself in preparation,
Knowing you would still be there,
If I had you in November.

If I had you in December,
I would begin to worry and chase in fear,
For I’m not the kind of person you would stay with,
And I would begin to lose you in December.