Your words are so silent now, I don’t think I said anything yet. You count in your high regard and I wondered what it would take to have you look at me without hate. My heart speeds when I think you stopped by. I’m wishing for her to collapse you; I’m wishing for you to break away from her black venom. I look and I see you but you don’t see me. I am a shadow in disaster. I thought you could measure love but this is something else completely. It is everything and nothing but something or anything. I lose all meaning when all I ever wanted was to help you, and you said I tear you to shreds. But I don’t think it’s true. Maybe I am just exposing the darkness you wished didn’t exist, maybe I am holding you to confrontation and that is something you can’t do. I look for familiar faces but I swear, the sun comes after the rain, and I may bring out the monster but I can also calm it. All I wanted was to save you but now I am dying trying to keep myself alive.